06 Nov Letting Go
2020 has been a year of transition for our family. For our friends and loved ones who have been following along with us on this journey, you know that we had been building a cabin retreat in the mountains of Colorado for a while now.
When we first began to build the cabin back in 2018, we didn’t know that we would be moving to Colorado. It was to be our gateway to the mountains, to the wilderness of God’s glorious creation.
The more time we spent visiting Colorado to work on the cabin, the more we felt the calling to move to this beautiful state. And now that we’re here, we believe this is where God has led us to put our roots down for the foreseeable future.
In March, we moved to a temporary rental home in Colorado Springs. We began searching the area for where we could settle in to our dream – of building a small farm and bed & breakfast where guests could visit, rest, recharge, meet with God, and enjoy his vast creation. A place where we, as a family, could grow in love, steward the land, tend a garden, raise animals, and help to restore and heal others.
A few months after actively searching, in the midst of COVID, we found it.
A beautiful piece of raw land half an hour outside of Colorado Springs. Private and secluded, the land rolls with hills, forests, and meadows. At the highest point of the property, you can spot Pikes Peak & the Front Range out in the distance, and the Bijou prairie basin in the opposite direction.
Standing still, you can hear the wind soughing through the trees, the birds singing their songs, the grasshoppers clicking as they fly from one leaf to another, and almost nothing else. No roads, no vehicles, no people (unless the neighbors happen to be out working in their garden).
At night, if you lift your head and allow your eyes to focus in the darkness, a million stars come into view with the faint glow of the Milky Way stretching across the expanse of sky.
This is our nook. Our little corner of earth that the Lord has carved out for us. We feel so blessed to be given a chance to steward this place and we pray that He will teach us how to do it with wisdom. We have begun the process of improving the land in order to live on it – digging a well, installing septic and electricity, etc. – and we hope to move in next Spring 2021.
But the cabin. Oh the cabin. One headache after another, it had become a never-ending project that seemed to, well, never end. This summer, after many stressful months trying to finish the build, to no avail, we realized that maybe we were trying to hold on to something we weren’t meant to hold onto any longer.
So we decided to sell the cabin.
I’d be lying if I said it wasn’t a struggle to come to this decision. There were feelings of failure, of disappointment, and of the fear of disappointing others. We had wanted so badly for it to be a place to share with others. But we knew deep down in our spirit that though we could’ve pushed it through with our own might, it would have been foolish of us to do so.
Glory to God, as soon as we made the decision, an immense peace took the place of all the stress. We knew that it was what God had been wanting us to do. He wasn’t going to force it on us, but He knew it wasn’t good for us to hold on.
It’s bittersweet even now – we had put so much of ourselves into the build. From design, to actually being the ones who laid the floors, did the stonework on the fireplace, and installed the deck. Yet, the sweet outweighs the bitter as we know that we can now focus on our future home here – on the bigger dream that God has called us to.
In this post, we say “good-bye” to the cabin. We pray the family who is buying it will enjoy it and be blessed.
We are turning our complete focus now to what will be our small farmstead & retreat. I hope to share more plans in further posts.
Thank you so much for reading this update, and for following along on the ups and downs of what we are doing. Blessings to you!