Life is hard. No doubt. Wave after wave can come over us, until we think it’s going to take us under. But it won’t. I promise you can do this. You can do anything when you depend on God to give you strength.
I went to talk to my pastor a couple of weeks before my husband left. I was distraught. I had tried everything to save my marriage, to turn my husband’s heart back to me. It didn’t work. I was shaking and crying and didn’t know how I was going to survive. My pastor gave me these verses (and he read them to me with MY name inserted for Jacob and Israel)…
But now, this is what the Lord says – he who created you, Jacob, he who formed you, Israel:
“Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name; you are mine.
When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze.” Isaiah 43:1-2
And they didn’t. The waters didn’t sweep over me. The flames did not set me ablaze. God, who was always with me, showed up in such a big way I can hardly stand it. He showed up and carried me through the dark days. Carried me through the scary days. Carried me through the uncertainty. And out the other side. Trust me, nothing is perfect. We will be dealing with the aftereffects of this for many years. But God has grown such deep trust and peace in me. Even when I don’t like the outcome, I trust Him to use it for His glory and our good.
So hang in there. Whatever you are going through, God knows it. He knows it better than we do and He is aching with you. But He is allowing it to bring about His greater purpose for your life and for the world. Just lean into His love and keep walking.