Standing in the Gap Day

Just so you know, I am ridiculous about remembering dates. Not that I necessarily remember to send birthday cards (sorry!), but actual dates that things happened in my life don’t tend to leave my head.

April 9, 1991 – Our first date

Easter morning, 2000 – woke to the news that my Grandma had died

November 24, 2000 – My dad died

March 1, 2003 – lost my first child to miscarriage


March 2009 – lost my second child to miscarriage

October 18, 2009 – my husband left

Hmmm. Yup. 4 years ago today. It’s amazing the perspective shift that can happen in four years. At times, I am still sad about it. It’s still not what I wanted. But the pain isn’t anywhere near as deep.

I remember a story I heard in church after he left. (if I’ve told you this before, please humor me!)

A man was stuck on a desert island. He had nothing but the clothes on his back. He lived off the land and worked hard to build himself a hut with what nature on the island had provided. He worked and worked and worked. It’s a lot of work to build a hut by yourself. The day after he finished building it, he was fishing on the beach and looked back towards his hut. It was completely engulfed in flames. He was distraught. All his work. His only worldly possession, completely destroyed. He couldn’t take any more and was ready to give up.

Several hours later, a massive ship appeared on the horizon. When they got him on board, he asked how they knew he was there. They told him they saw his smoke signal.

The very thing that threatened to tear him apart and destroy all hope was the very thing that delivered him.

Sometimes our lives are the same. We are stranded alone on a desert island, fighting with everything we have to save something. We pour all we have into it and it still burns to the ground. And it IS devastating. But it just may be the very thing God uses to rescue us.

He knows what He is doing. It’s so much easier to see it from here. So if you are in the middle of your catastrophe, please remember that God always does what is best for those who love Him. For those who are called according to His purpose. He has a different perspective. He sees the whole picture, knows what is best for us and will use everything to fulfill His divine plan. And He won’t forget about our good in the process.

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